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mind
dreadful mind
of a transgressional past
filled with lies
and inconsiderate laughs
broken heart
from a crappy life
a mind so dark
with holding the light
negativity
are the walls of mai mind
captivating me
and all of mai sights
a stronghold has been built
against all mai hopes
every light has been filled
with no way to cope
i'm going down
way under the bridge
with no way out
as i skid
i've became a prisoner
to mai own mind
causing me to wither
and slowly die
Name: cryss
D.O.B: February 18
Status: Single
Orientation: Straight
Height: 5'4"
Ethnicity: Filipino
Occupation: Student
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Name: cryss
Gender: Male
Interests: Sum interests, of mine, r bball, bcoz thats da only sport that i'm actually kinda gud at, bein with mai best cuzins, talkin to friends on and offline, watching t.v., eating, and thas all..
Expertise: Things that i'm an expert at..hmm nuthin reelie..buh maybe writin poems, tryin to make as much friends as possible, uhh..being maiself..
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
AIM:  asianballr21889
Member Since:
4/25/2004
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damn...so much has bin happening..its crazy..like the last two weeks were hell..i was doing everything..losing friends...talking to deans, drama with this one bitch that was going to lead me on...shit...i got soo depressssed...damn....it hurt..buh i'm slowly recovering...eh..again..recovering from stupid shit
eh
well i hope everyone else's live are alot better
take care yoo
much love
crysS
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| hey wassup pplz..
damn i've changed alot..like i remember before i was hella shy and afraid of what i might say..and like outta no where i've become a whole new person..like at skul..i would just say hi to random ppl..mostly to girls..and like..ya..it feelz great being really open..its like before..something was pullin me baq..and now..i've just let loose of mai inner self..but at first it was a huge impact on mai fellow peers that are girls because i treated them like guys and most of them felt uncomfortable..luckily mai friend stacey finally opened up mai eyes and told me to treat hur like a GIRLL..haha ya..soo after that..i matured a bit..and i am currently not soooo openn and notttt sooooooooooo shy..i'm just rite..hahha yep..
well life has bin alrite for me..over the summer i struggled with mai feelings but mostly with mai emOtios..it was horrible..i thought i wouldn't have such strong feelings for a girl buh i do..i guess its because i was single for about 2 years and i guess i missed the love life..ARG...everytime i get over a girl..i fall for another..i think tha applies to everyone..i read it sumwhere..like your always going to be infactuated with a person or have a crush..mahn...this sux..i wish i could just get a girl and like........not go through this drama with mai feelings..haha..well i had this huge crush on mai friend..she was a freshmen tho..so it was really bad..i've gotten over her a bit due to mai lack of communication with her..basically i started ignoring her at skul..like i'd make sure i wouldn't see her..eHhh..well its kinda a gud thing..coz now i'm almost ova her..but our friendship died out..its okay..if we are meant to be friends.then we will be in the future..if not..then..damn tha sux.......
hmmmm..life is great..all is gud...and i hope it is for everyone
take care pplz
till NEXTTTT NEXT NEXXXXTTTTTTTTT time
much love
crysS
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| Hey..
yea..so much has happnd to me so far..like ..lots of drama......haha..hmm well yea..i'm gettin close to one of mai cousins from the reunion...she was like the only one i talkd to really after..buh sheez cool..sheez teachin me so much from whre sheez from..."the bay"..haha..yea sheez teachin me all the diff styles and how they talk..and shit..its hella cooll...haha..yea.. and like.. you know how i was fallin for mai bestfriends ex...yea..fuck..haha..like he knew the whole time..buh he dint know that she liked me baq..and wen i told him..shit..i felt so bad..yea.. i still doo..like i uno..buh yea..his ex became one of mai gud friends..and then we started to fall for each other..coz she fuckin calld alot..buh then i saw hur tru colors..sheez a horrible person..and like after i told moe about hur lykin me baq..like i stopped talkin to hur..bcoz sheez a crazy ass trick..i aint gunna deal with that..like..mai bestfriend stopped talkin to hur for awhile..and then started again..and she was like turnin him against me..fuckin stupid ass bitch..buh its ayht..then i stopped talkin to both of em..coz i uno..pissin me off..and i started to talk to this girll...mai friends friend..and i met hur like a year ago..and i saw hur myspace through mai friends myspace..and i added hur and we started talkin..buh then we started to talk on the phone..got close..nd i loved hur personality..like she has the gud sense of humor personality.. immature..child like..just soo fuckin funny..and chill to talk with.. and ima sucker for those type of girls..and yea..we fell for each other..and she liked this other girl...before i evin came into hur life..and like..yea..i uno..she fuckin sed to stick around..and tha she was confused..and that she still liked me..and i'm like fuck..i dint know wuh to do and mai feelings grew stronger..and she lead me on..and i got fuckin played again..just like a fuckin bitch..its really ridiculous..i hate this shit ..its fuckin pissing me off.. stupid ass bitches fuckin playin me left and rite..and like..i've bin in relationships..like not long after each break up..and in most of em..i got played..and thas why i was single for a year..and then i get played agian..fuckin gay..this is just soo stupid..haha..i am soo stupid.. buh wtv..ima live through it..be single for another year..learn from this shit..and yea.. become a better person..those are the biggest negative highlights in mai life....yea.. haha.. well i'm out..take care ppl
crysS
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| yea...on friday..mai dad, mai bro, and i drove to san leandro for like 6-7 horus..haha..damn..yea.. the drive was soo frikkin boring..fuck..lol.yea..haha..ne ways.it was really worth the drive coz we attended a family reunion.. i met cousins that i haven't met before or that i haven't seen in long time and couldn't remember them at all..yea it was really cool meetin e veryone..that was the great part..the hardest part was talkin to them..haha..coz they seemed like strangers and shit..and its like your first time meetim them haha..yea..it was ayht tho..coz i stayed up with mai cousins and mai one niece until 6..haha..yea..it was really crazy...buh the worst part was they left..coz i dint get to say bye to them..it really sucked..i was like..FUCK!.. ahaha..it ayht..i got thur myspaces to keep in touch..so its all gud..so yea.. i'm all alone right now..bored..haha..and i'm still in san leandro..really boring..i'm just waiting for mai dad so we can hit the road for a gud long 6 hour drive..haha..ayht..yea.. mai advice is keep your love ones close to your heart coz like you never know when you get to say goodbye.. coz i know i didn't get to say gudbye..and it sucked..haha..yea..ayht mahn take carezzz ppl
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damn..i remember baq then when everyone couldn't wait to get a xanga
and shit..now they all want a myspace..so much has changed in the
last...3 years or so..hahha..i remembered wen i got this xanga..i
was like.."damn, this is the shit"..haha..what the hell was i
thinking..the only reason i got it was to see why people liked it so
much..thurs not much to like..especially wen you have a chatterbox and
stupid fuckin haters don't know how to shut thur mouth..its
ridiculous..buh myspace..that's different..you actually know who is
talkin shit..unless they make a fake myspace just to show thur
hate..and..yea..that just shows taht they don't have a fuckin
life...hahaha..
ya..finals are over and mai motivation to write poems is almost dead .. its interestin because without me being depressed..it
wouldn't have encouraged me to write poems.. poems are a gud way to
reflect and put your feelings into werds..rather than into negative
actions..that's why i startin writing poems..it got me to clear and
calm mai mind without me breaking into tears ova sum stupid shit..haha
yea..well..that's all for now..i know no one is reading this..hopefully..ahha..ayht..take care anyways..
peace
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